John Smallman: When “stuff” comes up . . . rejoice!

When “stuff” comes up . . . rejoice!

April 19, 2016 by John Smallman

Jesus Audio Blog for Tuesday April 19th

As the moment of humanity’s awakening approaches, many are experiencing unexpected emotions of great intensity arising into their awareness – the remembering and re-experiencing of long forgotten or deeply buried trauma – “stuff’ that they thought was over and done with, that they thought was healed. Childhood wounds and suffering are often very deeply buried to enable the child to survive and grow, but in later life they surface to be healed, and re-experiencing them can be very painful and surprisingly intense.


If they are not addressed as they arise the suffering intensifies. To address and release them is part of humanity’s awakening process because you will awaken into Love, Reality, Source, where anything that is not in alignment with that wondrous state, your natural state, has to be left behind, discarded or dissolved before you awaken, because the unreal cannot enter into Reality.


When you go within, to your holy sanctuary of divine Love – and no one is without one – tell God of your suffering and ask for help to let it go by surrendering it to Her. She is male and female in perfect harmonious equilibrium and will embrace and soothe your troubled hearts, allowing those ancient and painful traumas to just dissolve into the nothingness from which they seemed to arise. Remember, there is only Now. Nothing remains from the past, which is unreal, and nothing hangs over you as the future approaches because that too is unreal. You are, and always are, the beloved and untroubled children of God residing now in His Presence in utter peace and joy. What you, as humans, experience apart from Love, is unreal and cannot last.


Make daily visits to that holy inner sanctuary where Love resides – permanently – open your hearts, and allow It to embrace you. All that you need do is allow by surrendering to It, and then you will realize that you are One with It, and that indeed there is no separation. Doing that allows all that buried or denied trauma, suffering, or plain emotional confusion with which you are all burdened to arise into your awareness, and then, if you do not engage with it by trying to remember all that happened in that particular instance, or try to understand it, it will dissolve. It will probably not be instantaneous because it is like grief, it has to flow through, and because you are living as humans in time, it takes time and you will feel it, possibly very intensely, so have tissues at hand. (John has been doing a lot of this over the last few months.)


When the flow ceases you will feel relaxed, probably quite tired, and at peace . . . until the next time! But, it will come to an end, and the more willingly you allow it in the more quickly will it pass. Men probably have more of a problem with this than women because they are mostly enculturated to be tough. And being tough means not showing emotions, therefore blocking their emotions (although anger is often seen as tough, and is therefore acceptable!) has become normal, so when sadness or suffering of any kind arises, leading to crying, it is almost automatic to shut it down. So for men, it will probably be necessary to find somewhere safe, somewhere they know that they will not be seen or disturbed, and thus safe from the embarrassment of being seen not only to have intense feelings, but to be sobbing their hearts out! It is NOT unmanly to do so, that is just an unfortunate male stereotype that needs to be discarded.


To release all this buried and painful emotional trauma is an absolutely essential part of your and humanity’s awakening process. However, if you have already done a lot of work on yourselves, what you experience may well be as a result of your wise and loving choice to assist in the collective release of eons of trauma that have resulted from the painful games in which all have been involved since the separation experience was initiated.


When “stuff” comes up . . . rejoice! It means that you have made the decision to release all that is holding you back by opening to Love, your true and eternal nature. It will be unsettling, buried emotions disclosed are always unsettling, but allowing them to flow will bring you to a space in which inner peace will enfold you. That place of inner peace is closed off to you when you deny or bury your feelings because that intense resistance you are living with closes off access to the comforting arms of Love. Love feels! You know that because you have all at some time experienced Love offered and have accepted It, even if only briefly, though probably not as you are reading this.


Love is what the search for meaning is all about, and has always been all about, but the games of survival that you have been playing for eons have required you to build defenses against attack and betrayal, and those defenses also lock out Love. Love is always vulnerable, undefended, and amazingly strong and powerful. When you open to Love you no longer need defenses of any kind. Allowing the pain and suffering of past traumas to arise in your awareness and flow out through you washes away those fearful needs, freeing you to engage fully with your Source, from Whom you have never for even a moment been separated.


Go within and discover the treasures that have been stored there over the eons. Every single loving thought, word, or deed you have ever engaged with, no matter how seemingly inconsequential it may have seemed to you, has helped create a store house of treasures that you will dis

cover with delighted astonishment when you awaken into full conscious awareness of who you truly are.
Lay down your masks, the false selfs you present to the world, open your hearts in vulnerability and delight in the freedom you experience. When you do you will find others, also unmasked, responding to you, and true relationships, holy relationships, will be established where you would previously have thought them impossible. You are all beings of Light, of Love, and when you uncloak yourselves by dropping your masks or false selfs and offer Love to others, instead of cautious observance as you check for the safety of the situation, the responses you call forth will delight and astound you.


You are Love, and so is everyone else, therefore engage only lovingly, and exult in the wonder that results. This is the time for which you have been yearning, so open your hearts and engage fully with the joy that awaits you.
Your loving brother, Jesus.

John Smallman: Peace and happiness are found by being your true Self.

John Smallman: Peace and happiness are found by being your true Self.
05/23/2015 by John Smallman


Saul Audio Blog for Saturday May 23rd.


Humanity’s journey through the illusion has been long and arduous.  You have all spent many lifetimes trying to find your way Home.  As you know from personal experience much suffering is undergone as you search for love and are betrayed or abandoned by those who you would relate to with love.  It often seems that life is not meant to be either happy or enjoyable, but more likely a path that involves much pain and suffering.  And those who lead so-called “good lives” are just as likely to suffer as anyone else.  There appears to be little point in behaving well for it seems to make absolutely no difference, as the rewards available within the illusion often seem to be awarded to those least worthy to receive them.


The illusion is an insane environment.  It was built collectively to enable you to separate yourselves from your divine Source, and to access that unreal state, Love, your true nature, had to be excluded.  But of course you all desperately want to love and to be loved, and so you seek love from one another . . . endlessly.


The illusion is truly a most confusing place in which you can never find that which you are endlessly seeking – Love – because It has been excluded, shut out.  What passes for love is often behavior driven by guilt, fear, or low self-esteem.  So please know that you were created perfect, that nothing can change that, and that your apparent abilities and competences, or lack of them, as experienced as you live life in the illusion are just illusory limitations.  They are but tools that you can use to demonstrate to yourselves that the illusion is illusory, unreal.


As you have so often been told God is Love, and God contains within Himself all that exists, all of his divine creation.  That concept makes absolutely no sense when you are confined within the illusion and therefore severely limited by the restrictions it places upon your intelligence and upon your ability to understand what God is in any meaningful way.


The idea in building it was to construct something extremely limited because that was the only way that apparent separation from God, from your divine Source could be achieved.  Separation from God is impossible, but an imaginary or unreal place of separation was possible, and that is what you built.  It is indeed a terrifying and nightmarish place or situation.  Fortunately you will awaken from it!  God’s Love for you is utterly beyond your ability to imagine or conceive of, consequently when you chose “to leave Home” He instantly provided the means for your return, for your awakening.


All that you need do is to stop trying to find your own way because there isn’t one.  The only way Home is God’s way, and you find that by releasing your hold on fear, anger, resentment, and judgment, and by embracing forgiveness.  Forgiveness is the antidote to the illusion, the solvent in which it is dissolved, and it has been available to you ever since you entered into the illusion.  In Heaven, In Love, in God, there is no need for forgiveness as there is nothing to forgive, there nothing exists that is not in perfect harmony and alignment with Love, your natural state, the state that in truth you have never left because there is nowhere else.


The fact that you exist proves that you are One with God, and therefore with each other.  But the state of separation you appear to inhabit insists that this not the case, it insists that the opposite is true, that you are separate, alone, and insignificant.  And so you have spent eons in confusion looking for something that cannot be found outside yourselves.


God is in you as you are in God.  However, the nightmare that you conceived of and built, due to the limitations that you made an essential part of it, has effectively placed a veil, a curtain, or a shield between you and You, between you and God, between you and Reality.  It is made of your choice to see separation as real, dangerous, and constantly threatening your lives, and in an environment like that there is no room for trust, for honesty, for integrity, or for Love.


The more deeply you attempt to engage with the illusion the more real it appears to be and the more suffering and betrayal you experience.  You engage with it by judging it, and either trying to improve it by changing it, or taking advantage of it and seeking power over others.  It does seem to offer enormous possibilities to those who choose to be sufficiently savage and unrestrained to attempt to control and run it as they see fit by fear and force of arms.  While those of you who pray for world peace are constantly being reminded of the intense and unjustifiable suffering that so many are undergoing all across the world.


However, no one is in the “wrong place!”  Everyone on Earth is a dearly beloved child of God, everyone has already received everything from God, and that includes free will and the freedom to choose which path they will follow when they incarnate as a human in the illusion.  No one has been “short-changed.”  This does not mean that the suffering that someone undergoes during an earth life is in any way justified, or is a well-deserved punishment for misbehavior in a previous incarnation.


Everyone incarnate as a human on Earth has made a spiritually guided choice to embark on a series of learning experiences best suited to their individual needs.  No one on Earth can know why another is following a particular path.  All anyone can do, and it is the most appropriate course of action to follow, is to offer love, honesty, and compassion to everyone with whom they interact, and if they feel they have been hurt or offended then to offer forgiveness.


Remember that there is a spiritual purpose in every meeting, in every interaction, and in every relationship.  Whether its meaning becomes apparent to you is not of great importance, the important part of being human is to practice being loving, compassionate, and forgiving in every situation in which you find yourselves so that you learn your own lessons and let go of any aspects of yourselves that are unloving; aspects that are in fact unhelpful self-sought attachments helping to hold you hostage to the illusion.


Love practiced honestly and with integrity, as opposed to conditionally or manipulatively, brings peace, healing, and joy.  Any other form of loving is not worthy of the name, and always results in pain.  If you will make the intent to practice loving behavior in all your thoughts,words, and actions, and if you will keep reaffirming that intent, then your life will flow more easily, encouraging you to keep reaffirming that intent.  You have probably noticed that those who behave lovingly are generally far happier than those who are forever finding fault, with themselves, with others, or with the world in general.  And that is because your true nature is Love.  Peace and happiness are found by being your true Selves, by loving and forgiving, and by letting go of judgment, resentment, and hatred, and that, of course, is being true to Yourselves.  It is also your path to awakening.


Never forget that there is nothing you can do to make God withdraw His Love from you, or in any way alter His feelings for you.  His Love surrounds you in every moment of your eternal existence.  Without It, and that is impossible, your existence would cease, because It is the Source of your life.  You are One with God, and that knowledge is to become most brilliantly manifest, filling you with immeasurable joy.


With so very much love, Saul.