We
recently talked about the effect of Pluto, Saturn and the South Node
being together in the skies this year. Today we’re going to focus on
Saturn and the South Node as these two are pretty much side by side for
the next 4 months until the end of September. This is a huge time for
getting your act together, letting go of what needs to be let go of, and
moving forward with purpose.
Whether
by choice or through circumstance it will feel like you are coming face
to face with the past over and over again. You may be confronted to
look at:
What old baggage am I still carrying around?
What old stories and beliefs am I holding that no longer serve me?
What patterns do I keep repeating that I am DONE with?
With
this baggage, with these stories, beliefs and patterns, some of them
might be connected to your past in this life, others are connected to
your family and their story, or your ancestral
lineage/multi-generational patterns. Some could be past life related
(soul lineage).
With
old stuff like this, it can often be the case that we’ve cleared/healed
our beliefs on a conscious level but on a subconscious level or on an
“emotional set-point” level we’re still lugging them around. For
example, consciously you may genuinely believe that you’re always taken
care of, and that you always have enough. However you might find
yourself constantly repeating old money patterns, or old emotional
reactions to those money patterns. The emotional reaction is part of
your OLD emotional set-point (your emotional set-point is the emotion
you keep falling back down to time and again be it disappointment,
anger, frustration etc) and it’s this emotional reaction that keeps
habits/actions/energy alive that keep the whole cycle going!!
This
repeating cycle is a result of decades, if not lifetimes, of a certain
groove being conditioned to act and respond a certain way. Whatever your
old groove is, whatever that old wound is that keeps getting poked and
prodded, Saturn and the South Node are joining forces to help you say
“ENOUGH!!!”
All this is happening in the sign of Capricorn
which is about being an adult. It’s happening opposite Cancer which
represents our inner child. So for a lot of us, wherever we have been
acting through the lens of our inner child, wherever we have felt like
the victim, wherever we are in blame mode, wherever we feel dependent,
needy, not good enough or overly sensitive, it’s time to emotionally
grow up. It’s time to be the parent that we perhaps never had, or wish
we had.
Saturn
represents the father so for some of us our 2019 healing story could be
related to our father or anyone who was in a father role when we were
growing up. It also represents authority in any form, so if you have any
sort of entanglement with authority this year it would be very
beneficial to look within and ask:
Where am I ready to own my inner authority in a greater way?
Where am I ready to step into greater responsibility?
Where am I apologising for being who I am?
Where do I feel I have to justify my very being?
Where am I still acting like a child/living in child-mode?
Where do I need to claim my adulthood (and autonomy)?
Saturn
is about taking responsibility. Saturn requires discipline, patience,
hard work, practical action, taking one step at a time to reach
long-term rewards and goals. There is no cutting corners here.
Is there something you have been wanting for a long time?
Something you’ve wanted to do, become or accomplish? This Saturn/South
Node energy is ideal for seeing very clearly what’s been holding you
back, knowing exactly what you need to do to let that go, and take steps
to move in the direction of your choice.
Saturn
is about consistency and commitment. It’s about showing up – especially
for yourself. If you want something, go for it – but you have to show
up and do what needs to be done.
Here’s an exercise to help:
Write a list of things that you want to do, become or accomplish.
Next write a list with 2 columns:
Column 1: Why do I want this?
It
helps to get clear on why you want what you want. Sometimes things have
been on our want/to do list for so long, but they’re actually no longer
relevant to our current version of who we are. Time to ditch those
things. Sometimes we realise hang on, I only wanted this to prove
something to my parents/society. Actually I really don’t want this!
Knowing why you want something helps you to stay motivated even when the
fruits of your efforts aren’t yet here in their full form.
Column 2: Why I don’t want this.
This
column can be a tough one if you think “no part of me doesn’t want
this!!” Trust me, if something is not in your life that you want, there
is a part of you that for some reason either doesn’t want it, OR doesn’t
want it yet (right timing is everything!!!) Be open to whatever wants
to come through onto the page. With things we really want, there are
usually conflicting thoughts within us eg if I have, let’s say, more
success, then that means I will have less time, I’ll be more open to
criticism, online attacks etc etc. Working through those conflicting
thoughts will help soften them, so that what you really want can come to
you in an easier way. You don’t necessarily have to let go of
conflicting thoughts. Using the above example, yes, more success will
likely mean that at times you’ll have less time! (Other times it will
mean you have more time!). So it’s more about just acknowledging the
conflicting thought and saying well yeah, that’s true, but I’m okay with
that.
You
might see that the conflicting belief is trying to help you. For
example: The belief might be: “a new relationship will mean I have less
time to myself”. Maybe right now time with yourself is super important
to you. Maybe your soul very much needs time outside of being in a
relationship. So in this case you might agree that this no-relationship
time is a gift, and thus enjoy it while it lasts instead of resisting
it.
Restriction and Control
Saturn
can manifest as “restriction” in some area of your life. If that’s the
case for you, ask: “How is this restriction serving me?” Lack of money
for example is a good motivator for finally going for that promotion we
would otherwise be too scared to ask for, or that new job, or finally
getting some business idea off the ground. Lack of freedom is a good
motivator for finally leaving home, or any situation you’ve outgrown.
Obviously we don’t want to always attract “lack” in order to manifest
“more” (if that’s your emotional set-point, it’s time to change that).
Finding the gift in restriction is often the very thing that helps to
shift it.
Saturn
can also manifest as the control that ‘someone’ or ‘something’ has over
you. With the karmic South Node on Saturn it’s time to come out from
under this control. (This can include our own thoughts just as much as
any external factors). You will feel a new liberation as these control
layers start flying off you. This frees you up to live life much more in
alignment with who you really are.
Saturn is all about being real – bye bye to anything built on illusion. Which brings us to the global stage…..
Where have we been controlled?
Who is trying (and in many ways succeeding) to control us?
Where have we given away our authority?
The
South Node will help us see, in a clearer way, things we haven’t been
able to see before. Just like we’re now able to see our personal wounds
in a clearer way, our collective/global workings are being revealed
helping us to understand why the world really is as it is. More on that
in the next blog.
For
now, when your old stuff/past stuff comes up, find the gift so that you
can learn the lesson and move on from the pattern, OR if you feel
you’ve already got the lesson it’s fine to say “Hey old pattern/old
belief/old reality influencers, I don’t believe you anymore.” Most
importantly: CHANGE your actions. If you are used to saying yes to
something you don't want to do, how does it feel to say no? If you are
used to procrastinating about something you want to do, how does it feel
to start taking regular action steps, even if it's just tiny steps?
Has this Saturn//South Node conjunction started to affect your life already? How?
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