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Dear friends, I am Jeshua.
I am here
in your midst to connect with you so as to share our energies. The energy I
bring blends with your energy, your light, the wisdom that you have gathered
throughout all the lives you have lived here on Earth. In this way, we together
form a channel for knowledge to emerge that is tailored to the present.
We are
channeling together. Feel how you participate in this channeling and how you
are not only a listener, a student looking for answers, but at the same time,
the teacher who knows and feels the answers inside, and who wants to convey
this knowledge to others who are seeking. You all play both roles. You are a
seeker, someone who is continuously growing and is busy renewing and extending
yourself. And while this process is happening, you also transmit your energy to
others who might not be so far advanced in their process of change; who benefit
from your discoveries and inner achievements, which you transfer to others in a
natural way. The art of being a spiritual teacher is not whether you have the
ability to put your knowledge into an eloquent, perfectly worded form, but
whether you can transmit its essence in a natural, authentic way that carries
the vibration of buoyancy and freedom, and with a feeling of trust and
confidence.
There are
times when you feel that vibration very clearly, and then you are connected
with your deepest core. Your teaching then is not something you do or give to
the outside world, it is something you are. It is your natural vibration
that spontaneously radiates to others. If you are ever wondering: "What
exactly is the intention of the spiritual work I have come to do here on
Earth?", then go to that core within yourself where simplicity lies: the
truth of your unique self. If you connect there and come from that core, it
does not matter very much in what form you allow your energy to flow into the
world. Everything that feels good, that gives you joy and inspiration, belongs
to you, and by giving that to the world, you will in time be
compensated; you will receive in return. Do not get your security from material
forms or means, but from your inner core, where reign peace and naturalness and
simplicity.
I want you
to know that when I say this to you, it is also the One within you who is
speaking. I want to express your voice in this channeling, joined and blended
with my unique vibration. Together we form a field and that is the intention. I
am not a teacher who is elevated above you and has all the answers. It is right
that every soul expresses their own wisdom in a unique way that blends into one
vast brilliant field with all sorts of different shades and facets. Be proud
of who you are and never try to imitate another. Find who you are and then
you are at your most beautiful and most pure. The answer to all your questions
lies in that central core, deep within you; there where everything flows easily
and you can exclaim, "Oh, yes, it's actually this easy! This is who I am –
an unlimited and free being. Fear and lack are not real, they cannot really
touch me.”
Of course,
there are moments in the life of every human being when you lose the connection
with your center, and where everything becomes gloomy and dark, and fear and
despair take hold of you – negative energy, as you call it. You then lose the
connection with your inner core. Everything that at first seemed simple and
clear is now complex and complicated, something about which you must think hard
and deep. You walk around in circles and are stuck, as you would say, just like
a needle on a phonograph can be stuck in a groove while the record keeps
spinning, but nothing really changes. And such a situation brings about an
energetic exhaustion and a despairing gloom, and even can lead to depression.
If you are
stuck, then two things will happen: either you free yourself or you become more
entrapped until you come to a point that you are so stuck, to call it that,
that something has to be done. Energetically, life never stands still –
it cannot stand still – so you will then attract an event, or there will
be an inner eruption, that forces you to change direction. The new direction
will always be more intense than was the old direction, but it offers you the
chance for novel paths and new opportunities. From a cosmic perspective, you
can not actually get stuck; life continues to flow through you, but you can
still have the feeling that you are trapped. What that actually means is that
you long for something with which you already have an emotional connection, but
which has not come within your sight and reach; it remains beyond the horizon.
You then have the feeling you are trapped, and there arises frustration
and disappointment that seems to confirm your being stuck.
How do you
make your way out of such a situation? The first thing to do is to let go of
the judgment that something went wrong. You probably think to yourself: "I
should have been there already; my goal was to have already achieved this or
that – and I have failed". That judgment pushes you down and keeps you in
place even more strongly. If you were to look at yourself more objectively, and
from a slightly greater distance, you would instead say: "Apparently there
is something that I find very troubling and difficult to deal with, and I am
therefore not yet at the place where I want to be". If you can look at the
feeling of being stuck in that way, it is more of an invitation to examine
yourself, and to investigate what wants to be seen. What you will find are
contradictory emotions: one part of you longs for the new, for that which
fulfills you and brings more creativity and inspiration, while another part is
holding on to the old from fear of letting go and of giving up security:
How do you
deal with that fear? Ideally, if you are trying to make a big step toward
renewal, you would let go of your old identity and become a new person, which
is why one reads in the spiritual literature of a new birth, or a second birth.
However, you can count on the fact that you will not let go easily of your
old identity! That identity has been constructed carefully, and consists in
large part of a complex mix of survival mechanisms and patterns, behaviors that
you have used to avoid and escape difficult emotions. You begin to do this as a
child, and for a child that is often their only survival strategy,
because the emotions that it experiences can be too overpowering to be
understood by the child’s spirit. Children, especially sensitive children, can
also have a tendency to experience their parents' problems and heavy energies
as their own; a problem they must solve, which is not at all
the task of a child. In this way, there
arise from early childhood deep behavioral patterns to flee from pain, fear,
and trauma in order to find ways to get around it and to survive. It is
important to understand this in yourself.
Up to this
point, I have been talking only about an identity that has been formed in your
childhood in this life. But you also carry impressions from other lives,
lingering energies that now, in this life, want to be seen and released.
Therefore, at the same time that you desire to come into a new reality, to get
closer to your own soul, to become self-fulfilled, and to have in-depth
relationships with others, try to also look with utmost tenderness and
compassion at the part of you that is having trouble releasing the old. Feel
your own resistance, fear, and mistrust, which you can see through the eyes of
the child that had too much on its “plate” when it was small, and could not
handle it all. To a certain extent, each of you has been emotionally
traumatized, if only by way of growing up on Earth with the world’s many fears
and ideas about lack and negative beliefs encircling you – it can not be
otherwise than that you lose part of yourself.
I want to
tell you that it is not realistic to do “spiritual battle” with the injustices
outside you, or to try to change the world around you, or to try to force a new
world into being. A real warrior who fights for light embodies both male and
female qualities, and examines the child within, sees it in its struggle, and
with great tenderness embraces this child, takes pity on it, and puts it at its
ease. Here you see how important it is to make use of both your male and female
strengths in the healing of yourself. The female power reassures the part of
you that is the most anxious and suspicious, and might not even want to be here
on Earth. The feminine part reaches out her hand, is soft and nurturing as a
mother: unconditional, inviting, and creating openness. Try to experience that
by allowing the female energy in you to flow especially to those patterns that
give you so much resistance and trouble.
You also
need to utilize your male energy, which symbolizes certain strengths. Sometimes
it is important to make “hard” decisions, to set boundaries, to say goodbye to
situations or people who maintain old patterns. It is not a sign of being
spiritual to have unwavering compassion and understanding for negative patterns
in yourself or in others. The male energy says at times quite clearly: “No, to
heck with that!” It takes you on a new path where you can clearly stand up for
yourself and dare to show who you really are. That is the aspect of the male
energy that is essential in freeing yourself. Of course, from the feminine side
you can experience, both toward yourself and with others, a very deep
understanding of what is happening that might include negativity, violence, and
even destructiveness. But your masculine self makes you realize that you are
here for yourself in this lifetime and you have to make choices that serve your
light, your soul. That might mean making clear and definite choices, and even
distancing yourself from what is not essential to you and no longer suits you.
Imagine
that you now see this male energy in yourself in the form of a sword you are
holding in your right hand. And in your left hand you hold a magnificent cup or
chalice that stands for the receptive and healing female energy. Both are
instruments that you can use to be supportive to yourself. Sometimes it is necessary
in a situation where patterns keep repeating themselves, and when no renewing
flow is present, to wield the sword, to speak out clearly, and to not keep
being carried along by patterns with which you no longer feel comfortable.
At other
times, when you have to deal with deep emotions of fear or sadness, it is
necessary to be very supportive and nurturing to yourself, to be open and
receptive to your emotions. You can see the chalice before you as if made from
glass of a healing color, in which the emotions you are most struggling with
can be placed and are welcome. And if you do not know what you have to do in a
certain situation, or with certain emotions, then ask yourself intuitively:
“What is needed here – the sword? Do I need to take decisive steps, set
boundaries, separate myself? Or is it necessary that I turn inward and receive
my deepest emotions that are coming to the surface? Or do I need both?” The
male sword and the female chalice are two tools you have at your disposal.
Finally, I
ask that you feel the connection among us in this circle. Focus your inner gaze
on the teacher you already embody, rather than on the problems and
struggles you have shared with one another. Feel the great strength you have;
that unique powerful inner core you have at your disposal and that is already
so perceptible in you. Intuit how in this circle we together form a channel,
and now receive the energy that flows from us all. Feel what joy and wisdom and
hope is present in this energy. And when you are stuck, do not go blind by
staring at what does not work, but please also be aware of everything that goes
well, what is flowing into your life, and what you already have to give and
share with others – this is already so much!
I thank
you all for being allowed to sit here in your midst and mingle my energy with
yours. Yes!
Jeshua
© Pamela
Kribbe
Translation by Maria Baes and Frank Tehan
www.jeshua.net
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