Clarity in Release

Clarity in Release

Well, it's Groundhog day, why not repeat a bit?  This is my progression of emotion that swept over me tonight.


It’s been a long week for the community of people who follow Cobra’s blog. Awakening change has never been without challenge, but this week has been geopolitically polarizing, and energetically intense, despite Divine Support and progress made. It’s a good time to get out in nature if you can (It’s rather cold here, and I got stuck on the phone all afternoon, and have been working on the warmer days).  It’s a really good time for self-care practices and counting our blessings.  Shifting a paradigm does not come without growing pains, but this, too, shall pass. 😔  ~PB

the above was an intro to this:


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Phoenix Boulay
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Inexplicable crying jags tonight...😓
Some of it angst, some of it release,and some of it joy and connection.
Tomorrow I will be laughing at my self for this...but for now,
I am just going with the flow~ 💧🌧️☔💧


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A fb friend I really didn't know too well sent a video of a young singer in a direct message. Her voice was incredible, so I thanked my friend, and this became an opening to know her better, where she confided that that I am "kind of a star here in Oklahoma", where she lives.  Unbeknownst to me, she and her boyfriend enjoy my posts, read them daily and draw inspiration as they help young, confused, lost teens and kids who can't relate to the strict Bible belt mentality they are immersed in. She says they are reaching kids more and more. I was truly floored. It brought tears to my eyes to learn that sharing the things that resonate with me, and my thoughts, really is helping many other people. 


I had no idea I made a difference in anyone's life, beyond my massage clients. I always do my best to understand, discover and treat the client to the best of my ability. I know sometimes with a new client, I really have no idea if I am helping them until they get off the table, transformed for the better. Even if they are not, I take solace in knowing I have done my best, with an open heart.


Considering the ultra-sensitive day I had, and spending the entire afternoon on the phone, sorting out my new health insurance enrollment, it was humbling to hear that my efforts are not in vain. In the process, I was lamenting the loss of my respected doctors/hospital affiliation that I've had for over a decade. But then of course, I had to count my blessings for the roof over my head, food to eat, and access to medical care if needed.  The doctor assigned as my new PCP is a woman, and in walking distance from home, so that's a plus. While I was on the phone today, I missed a text from a client who wanted to come in. I would have been that much closer to making rent, so that was disappointing, but it turned out I really needed the whole afternoon into the evening, and a number of calls, to get things sorted out. 

I am wondering if anyone else is feeling ultra-sensitive on this Friday night? Often I feel energy shifts and Full Moons early, so it could be coming for you. But this crying I had also seemed like I was dropping density, surrendering to things beyond my control, and making my peace with my circumstance, which, after all, I created.  I have not been allowing myself the rest I need, nor the time in nature I crave.  After some stretching and sleep, I should have the energy and fortitude to persevere, and continue my efforts to make positive changes for myself.  

Oh, yeah, I read #TheMemo, but it was not as scandalous as we had hoped for!

Still, it is great to be alive during this time of #TheGreatAwakening, to usher in that paradigm shift and witness Victory of the Light!

In Lakech